Sunday, October 7, 2007

True refreshment

Ahh, church. It's so nice to be there. I finally was able to attend our church's worship service today. It's been so long, too long. I've either had sick kids, sick self, nursery duty, or been out of town. For me worship is like a refreshing stream that washes over me. Is that just because my kids are being taken care of in another room? No, it's the refreshment that comes from being in a place that I love surrounded by so many people that are like family to me. It's a place that I get refreshed and renewed. Where I remember what my true desires are and who I really want to be.

Today's service was the monthly communion service and Pastor gave the communion message. I was teary eyed when he spoke about how excited they were about their 6 year old daughter 'joining the family' of Christ by asking Jesus into her heart this month. He also mentioned about how sometimes folks tell him they feel uncomfortable going to our church because everyone there is so perfect. He said that he responds by saying, "You must be new." I laughed because I know the truth about myself. I know that there are so many things that I screw up on. Just this week I yelled, more like screamed, at my daughter in anger as I was trying to discipline her for not acting out in her anger. I just get this feeling that someone could be watching the scene and say, "Okay, she's two years old....what's your excuse?"

I have so much to learn and going to church reminds me of that. Being reminded of your faults and sins can really get you depressed. But services, especially like the one today, surprisingly don't make me depressed. I can look around at all the other people there and know that they are just like me. We are all on the same level when it comes to God. We all screw up. I eat the bread and drink the wine (grape juice at our church) and remember that Jesus knows all my faults and he STILL died for me.

That is amazing and makes even my messy life beautiful.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

No-Nap Day

Today was a “no-nap” day. This occurs every so often when I don’t get A down to nap before 2pm. Unfortunately, G followed the trend as well and I had both kids crying in their rooms at the same time. I don’t like “no-nap” days.

To save my sanity I had to go back on my threat to A. I told her that if she didn’t nap then Cousin  wouldn’t be able to come over. I thought she would understand this reasoning and settle down for a nap, but I heard her jumping on her bed 10 minutes later. When G started screaming I figured that one time of not following through wouldn’t fatally flaw my parenting. I also knew that my sister-in-law was having a no-nap day and we both needed each other.

So Cousin arrived and the kids all played together while Sisnlaw and I bemoaned the days without naps. I am fortunate to have pretty good sleepers. A only has these days once every 2 months or so while some kids her age don't even take naps anymore. I believe G is just in the process of dropping his second nap. I have nothing to complain about.

I should have known it was going to be a tough day when A screamed and cried when her beloved Daddy had to go to work. She said, “Daddy, I want you so badly!” and Hubby had to have the resolve of an Iron-man in order to not sit down to just one more tea party.

But what can I say? My cup overflows and I have too much to be thankful for to get down on one day.